Puzzles

Final year has been one kind of a year.. Hectic but this is the year I had the most fun.. It is the week 14 now which marks the finale of lecture weeks in my 4 years of study.

The ending which seemed so close now will lead to a new beginning. Not knowing where and how to get it started, it puzzles me. I am sure the 'force' as I mentioned in my previous entry will arrange the best out of it.

 Life never failed to give me puzzles which I tried hard to figure out. Sometimes, I wonder why do I get such weird puzzles. Does anyone else gets such puzzles? The puzzles are complicated, the more you think, the more it expands. The puzzles rely on a head and a tail as its backbone, just like the snake and ladder game. The journey told me that sometimes, all you need is a backbone to go on solving the puzzles, because two backbones can be challenging.


 The backbone for my puzzles is one of the factor I have come this far. I would love to see the backbone smile so wide  during my graduation that all the problems will temporarily vanish.



picture: the very proud moment to get this submitted. 

 

The goupmembers, from left, Kah Huay, Bee Chan, Me, Fatin, Azim and Jamilah

 Our 'father'. ok, father refers to our supervisor who has shown a very fatherly character. caring and kind. May he be in the best of health.

I am excited to get through this week.

Hoping for some good news too :) 

Yes, I do.

Plannings, seemed virtual. An imagination you made yourself to believe. The external force which I once denied. Not till when I flashed back and see how things got connected. So well, that I could not believe that I have been living with such 'forces'.

I stopped looking backwards, for that things have been arranged very well, beyond a man's abilities.

I once dreamt, hoped, wished, which seemed imaginary when I took up a different path, NEVER realising the very path which was walking up the dreams, created once upon a time.

My very own life's experience is my very own story, a story i will never fail to smile when I come to think about it, no matter how many years it will take.

All needed is focus, hell of determination to lead the mountain which I started. The mountain was steep, I fell, I woke up, I continued climbing. And today when a stone hit me badly, I realise I have been sleeping halfway. The stone (more stones) will continue hitting me, if I continue day dreaming in months to come.

And I am grateful for the call of waking me up, in the mid of this extraordinary acceleration. I felt loss, a temporary absence in the mid of handling things beyond my abilities, beyond what I should be doing. I poked my nose, knowing I cant be changing the situation, but when the stone hit me today, I knew the stone did not understand the pain I have been bearing.

The stone was my alert, telling me you are bettter than this, why did you perform not up to what you are capable of. And that was my wake up call for Mac telling me how I will be drowning if i do not get all of me to climb up this slope. 

I downgraded myself, It was the 'force' who woke me up, gave me surprises I never though of.

Yes, I do believe in the extraordinary plans of yours.

Thank you for the surprises and for pulling me up when the velocity might have dragged me beyond damage done.